Apathy?

                So I was thinking... This concept of not caring. Some people might call it apathy, but I'm not so sure. I personally think it's the next step in human evolution. I mean being ok with anything, just.. not giving a fuck. You know what I mean. Good things can come out of this even though I admit I'm not quite right there, I still care about a few things... a few people maybe. But everything is so fragile, it can shatter in a mare fraction of a second. I still believe that everything is irrelevant and meaningless yet human nature is hard to change, I guess conscience has a lot to do with it. I may be on the verge of insanity, constantly having these thoughts and accepting the fact that there is no point in anything and I’m thinking I should be depressed for feeling this way about things… but I’m not. I’m rather intrigued if anything. I’m not really sure how, but I believe it could unlock some great potential I’m not currently aware of. Who knows what this feeling, if I can call it that, can turn into. The only thing I can say is that I’ve never felt better, it’s that feeling you surely had at least once in your lifetime, when you feel like you know something no one else knows. A big secret that somehow makes you better than everyone else. Enlightened. It sounds crazy, I know, maybe even stupid. Judge all you want, it’s your nature to do so, but I’m telling you, once I fully understand this whole concept, I’ll be so high that nothing will ever bring me down. At the moment I’m merely taking a few steps. Baby steps, as they say. I’m in no hurry. The plan is to enjoy life the best I can.